Thats Deep Dude

So I am sitting in bed listening to russian circles and thinking about love. I know, its sappy and quite to the contrary of my rock lifestyle, but its been on the brain the last few days....

Last night a good friend called me about his relationship going south...As I was talking to him , reassuring him and being that friend who listens, I began to think about my own love life. How it seems to be not quite what I have been looking for. How I always seem to settle and how the ones I want always seem to find some way to elude me.

See the ladies in my life have always been fleeting ideas of beauty that I either cant stand them after two weeks or I am undeniably in love with them only to have thme not return the feelings back. To say that this is frustrating is a bit of an understatement.

During our conversation I flashed back to a point several months ago where a person who was one of those women I adored, was in bed with me on a monday morning. She got up , and got ready to go to work. Then left. We were close at that point. Friends for months, it seemed like a good match. Shortly after she left she ended up driving me crazy with some work related stuff. I got permantly offended and decided to not talk to her for a while. I dont regret it. I just miss the IDEA of what we could have had.

Flashforward to now. I'm with someone I am bored with, and I am chasing after someone I am enamored with. The one I am enamored with is amazing, but I am worried that it may not be what I am looking for. It may jsut be a fling for her...but I kind of want more...

I guess only time will tell....

"Really dude?"

Yeah so life is pretty much the same since I last checked in. LPM is doing really well , mixing is going splendid. Go buy the new Trainwreck album...

Ahh the goodlife

I applied for unemployment recently and to my shock, I actually got it. To the tune of 375 DOLLARS a WEEK! FOR A YEAR! Thank you govt!!!

Brava gig is done...now its time to mix...

A victim of the economy..sort of...

A few days ago I was let go from my day job. They stated it was because of "Budgetary issues" and that they had a need for someone with a "More applicable skill set". The truth is , I got laidoff because I had too much going on. That day job was suffering because I was working nights and not caring about work the next day. Showing up late , and just wasn't doing very well at my gig. Even with that being said , I was still bummed. I really liked most of the people there. But its time to move on...

I am now in the market for a full time live mixing gig. Thats the new deal. No more spreadhseets if I dont have to. Just mixing. It's a little scary, but it is very exciting. Change is good for me and good for my sanity.

Life is getting crazy....

Touring season is here... I have 1 tour to book....and its hard...reallllllly hard.... ;-)

Dude 4am....suck

Last night I worked at bottom of the hill doing the door. Pretty rad. I made about 40 bucks in tips (sick) and hung out with a friend I haven't seen in ages. Too bad I am not going to be there for the rest of April...My schedule is getting crazy. I am working for the Brava theater doing a show that runs until the end of April , on top of the day job...so B.O.T.H may be out for the month of april...

In other news I think I might shave my beard today...shit is getting out of control..

Listening to :

Texas is The Reason - S/T EP
Coalesce - Supernaught (Sabbath Cover)
ETID - The Big Dirty
Mineral - S/T

Long days...and even longer nights...

Last night I worked at Bottom Of The Hill and had a blast. I love that place. Seriously the people there are like a second family. So nice and accommodating. The bands that were playing were pretty good , at times, and gave me a run for my money when it came time to set up.

Tonight its off to meet a new perspective employer to let me mix there. :-) Then its a late night LPM meeting with Fight Pretty's manager. Hes a good dude , and hes got some killer ideas.

I am kind of excited...

Currently listening to:

TGUK - Like a Man Possessed.
Slayer - South of Heaven
Dustin Kensrue - Please Come Home.