Thats Deep Dude

So I am sitting in bed listening to russian circles and thinking about love. I know, its sappy and quite to the contrary of my rock lifestyle, but its been on the brain the last few days....

Last night a good friend called me about his relationship going south...As I was talking to him , reassuring him and being that friend who listens, I began to think about my own love life. How it seems to be not quite what I have been looking for. How I always seem to settle and how the ones I want always seem to find some way to elude me.

See the ladies in my life have always been fleeting ideas of beauty that I either cant stand them after two weeks or I am undeniably in love with them only to have thme not return the feelings back. To say that this is frustrating is a bit of an understatement.

During our conversation I flashed back to a point several months ago where a person who was one of those women I adored, was in bed with me on a monday morning. She got up , and got ready to go to work. Then left. We were close at that point. Friends for months, it seemed like a good match. Shortly after she left she ended up driving me crazy with some work related stuff. I got permantly offended and decided to not talk to her for a while. I dont regret it. I just miss the IDEA of what we could have had.

Flashforward to now. I'm with someone I am bored with, and I am chasing after someone I am enamored with. The one I am enamored with is amazing, but I am worried that it may not be what I am looking for. It may jsut be a fling for her...but I kind of want more...

I guess only time will tell....